Waiting With

I am constantly overwhelmed by the deep caring of those loving people in our life. I have come to understand that "standing by" is a graceful blessing. I know you are there and we feel your love and support. Doing is something we all relate to...however, never underestimate the incredible giving that comes through "waiting with". Love you all.

My mistake

How do you know?
I think change is like an accident that sticks.
Like when you stop smokin' after a bout of the flu, or stop drinkin' when well, you know.

It doesn't have to be that earth shattering, could be something as simple as sugar.

This morning I accidentally put a teaspoon of sugar in my coffee and first taste...I'm thinkin' this is the best damn coffee I've had in forever.  That's when  I tasted it; the sugar.  Hell, what else am I missin' out on, what other delightful changes are out there just waitin' to happen.  If change is good, it'll stick...if not, I guess we'd all pour that coffee down the drain and call it a mistake. Word. 

Card Tricks

How many feathers do you notice in a day?
Last Sunday, everywhere I turned there was a feather. Given my preference for down perhaps it wasn’t unusual. A feather on the windshield, one on the steps in the back, one in my hair and one in the bottom of a grocery bag. Hummmm.
Symbolically, feathers most often deal with ascension and spiritual evolution to a higher plane. Perhaps I just needed a little nap…some “down time”. I try not to read too much into things.
And then there was the number three. Here there…everywhere.
People who resonate with the number 3 are naturally lucky. They always seem to be in the right place at the right time. They are also opportunistic, and have the ability make good decisions. Three people are highly intuitive and intelligent. They can be opinionated and manipulative, but they mean well and have the best intentions in most of their undertakings. (Sound like anyone you know?)
The Trinity! Three reminds us we are all connected and it is only through this connection that progress can be made.
So there you have it…my leap was that Miss Universe had dealt me another card. The Three of Feathers
I immediately thought….Past, present, future…and what it feels like to live “in between”

What's a servin'

I had a friend summon me the other day about a disappointment. 

Disappointment literally means to fail to satisfy the hope, desire, or expectation of…something.  It’s a curious emotion that can pop up when you least expect it.  You have to be careful, 'cause sometimes it’s systemic…it can spread…quickly if it isn’t dealt with.

All hurt (or disappointment) is real and not to be taken lightly, it  needs to be lanced...it has to ooze out so the healin' can commence.  

When it touches the heart, it can leave you feeling let down, hurt, confused and sometimes, downright pitiful.  But take note…Once it reaches the ego, you need to get a grip on it...don't let it start to serve you!

This is for you girlfriend.  You fill a room…you have presence.  Now, take off  that apron and go whip up some mojo. 

Ants in my Pants

The Numbers: According to the Book of Lurlene
The number 5 is the most dynamic and energetic of all the single-digit numbers. It is unpredictable, always in motion and constantly in need of change.
Number 5 resonates with the influences and attributes of personal freedom, unconventional, individualism, non-attachment, change, life lessons learned through experience, variety, adaptability and versatility; opportunity, story-telling, mercy, kindness, invention, magnetism, competitiveness, imagination and curiosity.
I have always loved the number five. I used to doodle it…over and over again when I would get stuck.
I get restless when I am stuck…but that’s when five comes alive…like ants in my pants.
Feeling stuck is the anti-five. One must simply wait it out.

Outside the box

When I get stuck...it is because I put myself there.
'Nuff said
Simple as that
I'm the box I'm in

The Given...isn't always for keeps

I had one of those very strange dreams last night...one that involved being lost. In the dream I was "given" a story (to write) and a time. I was listening but I became distracted as I usually do, (focus for me is a challenge) and then...things started to happen very quickly and I couldn't keep up with any of it. I got the number...but all else was lost. I surmise that when we are "given" something...attention is imperative...take nothing for granted.

God helps those who help themselves...my wand please!

The other day I stopped and took a look at my face. I almost didn't recognize it. The eyes were tired and I had to look closer because I just couldn't seem to locate my eye-lashes. But I think it was the lips that got to me. I thought, "where the heck is my dang face?" Then it dawned on me, the prayers were were workin' but God(dess) helps those who help themselves.
Ahhh, the magic wand,  Lipstick...thank you and Amen!

Ode to a coffe-maker...

Coffee makers are a little like really good friends. You learn them..you know their nuances and you adapt to their whims. Coffee makin' is an art/science-ish, kinda mix. Temperature, brewing time, measurement (I have an old pickle jar I use to make sure just the right amount of water goes into the mix...doubt I could make coffee without it). That being said...no K-cups for me. Oh I was seduced...for about a month...but there is no give and take...no relationship. I will miss my dear old friend...but I will find another. Thank you for all you gave.

Decisions...decisions

Right in the middle of having a little hissy fit...something told me that I had a choice...that I could squash it ...or keep going. Choices abound.

Word of the day...Resolve

re·solve n.

1. Firmness of purpose; resolution: 2. A determination or decision; a fixed purpose: 

I've been looking everywhere for it.  I had it, I remember...it felt strong.  

Now...it appears to be missing.

Perhaps I held on to it a little to tight.  Perhaps I crushed it and it slipped through my fingers like sand.

Resolve can turn into dogma if one isn't careful, perhaps I simply released it.

 

Pssssttttt...Over Here!

I have been looking for something, something I thought I could actually "see" in the last place I put it.

But dag gone, it just wasn't there. I've lost sleep over it...gotten up in the night and looked elsewhere, rambled through my drawers and looked on my hats (cause I like to pin things on my hats) Nope.

Then this morning I was looking for a blouse I didn't need to iron (because everything I own has a wrinkle or ten) when I noticed I had hung about four of them over my jean jacket. (I never wear my jean jacket anymore and hangers are scarce in my closet).

I started to just throw on a sweater when I thought...oh heck, just put that jacket on over the wrinkled mess....and there it was!! Thank you Miss Universe...I'll sleep better tonight.

The Apple of My Eye...

If we did not know intrinsically that something might produce negative consequences, it would be a pleasure…not a temptation.  You know the feeling – Book of Lurlene 4:10

I happen to really enjoy Gary Zukav, author of The Dancing Wu Li Masters and The Seat of the Soul, a much more readable collection of insights and the physics of energy and karma.  During the Lenton season I started rereading some of his work on karma , attraction and choice.  I stumbled upon (like there is coincidence) this helpful (to me) explanation of temptation. 

"Temptation is the Universe’s compassionate way of allowing you to run through what w/could be a harmful negative karmic dynamic if you were to allow it to become physically manifest.   It is the energy through which your soul is given the gracious opportunity to have a dry run at a life lesson. “

I know I am forever imagining the proverbial domino effect…always weary of the unintended and the clean up on Isle three.   

Anticipation is kinda sexy...I think

I have been riding around with one of those pages from a magazine with the sniff strip of this perfume for well over a year now. I swear I can still smell it if I hold it by the corner and give it a full swipe from left to right.
I tell myself to just go on out to Stony Point and buy the darn stuff...but then a little voice says...but then what? So I just keep sniffin' and anticipating and lookin' like a druggie to the folks in the car next to me. Plus, I don't like gittin' everything I want right away.

Rewiring

I saw this clip this morning about "rewiring the brain".  Well, it took five clicks and lots of information to get to the source and I didn't have the patience for it. Patience in not one of my virtues, but thinkin' is...and so I realized I had been thinkin' about this all week. Changin' my "mind-set" has to come from someplace deep, it has to come from need and desire and belief in something bigger than the moment. It takes practice and consciousness, it isn't a quick fix. So there you go...something from the well this a.m.

The Juggler

I have to be honest, I do quite a bit of jugglin’.  I have to…or so I think.

Maybe I don’t, maybe I need to focus of what’s important and leave the rest for another time.

Thing is, I hate it when I catch myself blamin’ the situation or the circumstances.  I already know that Miss Universe is NOT to blame.  She gives me lots of room to mess up on my own.

I don’t question her wisdom, I usually just shout, “My Bad”

Walk the walk

A strange image woke me this morning. It was all about talk and reason and how sometimes we just talk...talk...talk...maybe to hide what our heart is saying. I believe the intellect might just be one of the strongest defense mechanisms we have. If you say something enough, maybe you can convince yourself that it's real...But the heart knows better and it is the heart that so often move me to the path I need to follow.

Thank you...I have enough

We have a funny story here in the village that evolves around the discussion of "What is a Virtue" Sitting around the table we were trying to remember the deadly sins and the virtues. You can read more about that over at http://justmustard.blogspot.com/2011/01/whats-it-to-ya.html. But it brings to mind my Saint of the day, Saint Enouphis.

Marymorphosis - Our Lady of Perpetual Change

January is usually the month most committed to making changes.  It is as if December 31 is a cut off date to which much is considered and surrendered for release.  But change is a process...a daily grind of commitment and choice, of cheating and hedging, bargaining and acknowledging weakness or applauding and celebrating strength. Change occurs wether we are active or passive, it is inevitable; and as natural as night giving way to morning.  Be not afraid, trust your instincts, and use the compass of the heart.

Intercession

Marymorphosis

Dear Lady of Perpetual Change

Help me to make the changes necessary to live as I am called by my heart.

The courage to start

and the renewed courage to start all over again.

Provide me with wisdom to know that which is hidden from me;

by fear, by anxiety, by denial, by trust misplaced.

Help me to change just one small thing today and another tomorrow…

Until my days are filled with

The magic of transformation

Amen Sister.